Dyspareunia or Fear of Living

Back Cover Text (From the Promotional Bulletin)

Dispareunia or the Fear of Living tells the story of the intertwined lives of Feraye and Cem, who have known each other for a long time. Feraye, a modern-day Eugenie Grandet, Cem, who is Don Juan. Feraye, who tries to stay true to herself by avoiding a world where everyone is fake; Cem, who rebels against the same fake world with a different method, by becoming a show star and by mocking this world from within it. Dyspareunia or the Fear of Living is the pain of unification of Feraye and Cem, both in their separate relationships with the world and with each other. One is always waiting without knowing what he is waiting for; the other is always searching without knowing what he is looking for. One thinks; the other does.

Dis is the prefix indicating difficulty, and unia means union.

While Nihan Kaya describes Feraye and Cem’s pain as they try to unite with this world, she again dives into the tunnels of human psychology and emerges successfully.

“I have been waiting for so long that I have now become like waiting itself. Waiting takes up all my time; it takes up my entire life, my entire life. Now I wait like a guard, like waiting for Godot, like waiting for the Mahdi, like waiting itself. My life is like a fully equipped electrical machine waiting for the electricity to come back. When what I am waiting for comes true, its nature will become visible.

I have been searching for so long that I don’t even remember what I was looking for. The only thing that is clearly engraved in my mind is that I am searching. I search everywhere, in everything, non-stop. I am so caught up in searching for myself that on the one hand I am scared that when I find what I am looking for, will I have lost it at the same time.”

Prepared for Publication: Ayla Duru Karadağ

Cover Design: Hamdi Akçay

Paper Type : 2. Paste

Number of Editions : 1. Edition

Year of First Printing : 2018

Number of Pages : 264

Size : 13 x 19